Dull Saturday~

Been quite a while.. the entire week i've not been updating. Well there are things going on, but i m just not in the mood to click n type it out here.
First of all would be the 090805~ National Day was fine.... nuttin much except for the disgust i had for the crowd... I m just hate crowds!!! if i would have to quantify it, the hatred would be the maximum extreme. I really regretted going... cox i was really turned off by the squeezing part. Every other mother son in Spore who happened to be free is rushing to Marina Area to see the fireworks. Kaoz... even Banglas n ah Tiongs, wat has it got to do w them when they aint even Sporeans.. I think my sianz-ness was pretty obvious n written all over my face, my apologies to anyone who wld happen to be unhappy w me that day. Doubt i would be going for anymore events which might expect a huge crowd~ Well the fireworks was nice... but i m just a boring guy who dont really appreciate it as much as the others. To me its just some explosives in the air. Oh yea~ El declares Mission Clarification a failure, well just no chance for me to talk to the particular someone. Anyway, i dont really care just dat it would be gd if i clarified lol~
A short week of sch follows.... Not only was i late for lectures, one lecture i skipped it totally~ Really didnt quite see the need to go since its only 5 mins left b4 it ends. However, i really decided dat i shd quit all these nonsense!! The very reason y my A's sux is becox of how slack i've gotten over the 2yrs... No way will i allow history repeating itself. Well Fri was a gd start, i will keep it up~
Fri happened to be R's bdae as well as the day for JAM & HOP. Fateful day, i was just in this antisocial mood... Just felt like being left alone all day, I dont really know was e prob behind this weird behaviour. Asked my fwen TJW out for a coffee instead... been quite sometime since i last meet up with him. As such, i gave JAM & HOP a miss. My apologies to ZR, sorry for not being ard to cheer u on...
From Fri to this very moment, the antisocial feeling just lingers on~ Perhaps El is just telling me dat he is tired and needed sometime on his own. Spent the entire day talking crap with WG and JJ on MSN. But no doubt crapping is fun lol~ Nuttin much left for me to bitch or whine abt, just stop here for now~

Sch Begins~

Sch kicked off with a 2hr Eg1109 Lecture. The seemingly 2hr long lecture ended pretty much before i knew it all thanks to the witty humorous lecturer Ang. I think he is great, without the farnie stories n etc, i guess 15 mins into the lecture i would have already migrated to wonderland~ After the lecture ended, had lunch with my psycho fwens R, K, A and sis YW. I happened to reach Arts Canteen b4 the rest and the familiar JC call my attention. He was there for lunch with his fellow fac fwens. Soon, A reached and seeing the packed situation, we decided to switch venue to Monkeys instead. When we got there, R, K and sis YW had already gotten us a table. Had a filling lunch and we went off for NEL @ harbourfront as they had some shopping itinery planned for. Thanks to my insomnia last nite, fatigue is sapping into me hence i decided to head straight home instead of going w them to PS. Grabbed the much needed nap, dinner and back in front of my comp again. Met R online and e very 1st thing she asked was y m i so quiet n dazy today. Lol... i found e qn pretty queer and so it happened dat she was expecting a much more talkative and chirpy EL. Sorry for turning down e invitation to go walk walk with u and A tml but i really hate squeezing with a big crowd and dats y u never see me in town often during weekends or public holidays. Well i didnt read much into it either. Later on in the night, I met sis YW online. Thru her, gotta noe dat R had actually had some misunderstanding abt me becox of my actions or rather behaviour. A & R actually had some wrong assumptions based on todays happenings lol~ I do have a few sides of me, perhaps everyone is more used to the chirpy n irritating El but i guess my closest buddies namely PR, Hammie, YoYo n Bastard all noe dat sometimes e other mysterious quiet n reserved El will suddenly appear too. Who noes for god noes wat reason. But for today, firstly i was really quite tired n didnt feel like talking and secondly i wasnt really very interested n involved in wat you pple were talking abt. As i really had nuttin much to contribute to the conversation, i chose to keep quiet instead. Well~ I really had no intention to avoid or shun away from R and why would i have to do so? On my part, perhaps i shd clarify the matter with her tml to prevent any further misleading dat might come along. Shall look forward to tml and the fireworks~ HAPPY 40th Bd@e S'pore!!!!!!

Pre Sch Blues

Finally~~ everything is gonna start tml... The clock is gonna tick and the stress is gonna build.... as time seeps by... will it be regrets or a fulfilling sense of achievement @ e end of 4yrs?? I have no answer to it.... not gonna say nonsense like i will put in my best, nuttin but the best effort etc.... Cheezeeeee Nuttin but a bunch of crap... Actions n Results speak louder than words!!! Suddenly its the chinese lunar 7th month again... the festival of Hungry Ghosts... When was the last time i actually noticed the practices of the festival ?? A gd 2yrs?? Somehow, certain old memories lingering along my memory lane pops up reminding me of the particular someone... Once we offered tgt, now i offer to her. Its been 3yrs... i still miss her (TT) W/O her, Elvin wouldnt be wat he is today. Oh mine~ suddenly i miss her homecook stuff so much... Was tuning in to class95 awhile ago, a Colin Raye song was played titled Holes In The Floor Of Heaven. I doubt anyone would believe it... El teared~ Since when anyone ever saw El shedding tears?? Not even the closest of all buddies had ever seen it. Its always bottled up. The last time rd when i heard the song was 3yrs back when she left me. She is living in my memory lane and as e lyrics goes... There's holes in the floor of heaven and the tears are pouring down, dats how u noe she's watching, wishing she could be here~ No doubt i can never forgive myself for giving up the last chance to talk to her b4 she is gone. However, i really hope dat she is able to see me getting over the pain n living my life to the fullest i can for dats her last wish of me... I really miss u, appear in my dreams will u? Its a drizzling nite... goes rite well with my mood, El cant go on... Maybe the bed is a gd escape if he is able to put his tots to rest~

Crush & Trust

Its been a while since the last post appeared... For the past few days, there isnt much for me to update either. Charlie N the Wanker, oooops i meant Chocolate Factory was great... All i can say abt it is... kinda spoiling the wonder nice memory i had of the book a good 12 years ago, but still i like it.... Yesh despite the long crappy songs, i still like it~ Rac is back again... sorry but gal, to no avail again ya.... dont hint anymore, Results gonna be the same =) Just move on~ Fri was my appointed LAPTOP Loan APPT.... Really wanna thank one of my best buddie PR, he was the only one who agreed to help without much hesitations when i approached and guess wat!! He took a cab down to help me out despite he got things on in sch... WAt a buddy!!! My sincere thanks n appreciation my BRO. After the Loan was settled by this weird looking fella, we went for an early dinner b4 proceeding to Orchard in attempt to find the ideal prezzie for Hammie who is just so freaking into overpriced goods for god noes wat reason..... Kaoz~ for the past 10 odd years, i just cant understand wat is wrong with this Rodent n his fetish for overpriced goods. We searched ard for 2 odd hours and somehow only the Davidoff Parfume n an overpriced shirt in Flash N Splash seemed ideal to us. Just gotta make another trip down to town again after i sound the rodent out. Later in the night, met JJ online.... he was not v happy abt JL spilling out his Crush for dat particular someone to Mart.... And yes~ of all pple Mart... El's principle of Propaganda states dat, (spreading to Mart) = (Broadcasting to the whole world)..... I just have no freaking idea y JL is retarded or rather RETARDED TO THE MAX to choose Mart of all pple. Well, an eye for an eye.... all my stuff was spilled out by JJ. Of course... the recipients of the info included Mart. I dont really blame JJ, lol i even felt its justified for him to do so haha... One thing for sure, i m kinda disgusted with this JL fella. He will be treated to the finest BNI treatment from EL. *BNI = BLOCKED N IGNORED~ I m fine with most pple, except extreme RETARDS... So enjoy BNI till u prove you indeed possess some sorta intelligence. I can foresee my tales being broadcasted @ vineyard when Tai Tai Dawn celes her 21st Bdae, maybe i can start gearing myself up for some hotseat session hohoho. Thank You JL, U made it possible!!! YOU Ass~ Well, life goes on... Earth is still orbiting, Money is still in printing, El is still El... He wont be angry for long... however, Duration is a mystery... Slp Calls. I'm off to bed, weekend Awaits

SUNNY SUN~

Back to the warm humid weather again after a long chilly cool Sat~. As usual, i had to go for tuition @ my Aunt's place 4 my fantastic brother Derek. I am pretty happy abt his performance today, at least i can sense a little desire to learn and he began to ask questions abt things dat he didnt understand. Hopefully he can keep up this zeal to learn and slowly catch up on things dat he missed. On my part, i would also try harder to be patient and understanding when teaching him... Its my cousin's turn after my brother, but dat was kept short and sweet as most stuff had already been covered last week. Just tuition alone kept me busy all day and drained me of my energy. Deadbeat and facing time constraint, i didn't meet up with Psycho @ Holland V. Somehow i didnt feel like going back home straight after dinner, instead i ended up at Starbucks Compasspoint relaxing in my fav brown couch chilling and observing the passerby and those ard me while enjoying my fave Mocha Frappe... There was this super cute gal rotting alone at the table just next to me lol.... she reminds me of Friend R~ same kinda feature and petite physique lol~ She realised i was looking @ her but she wasnt hostile, instead she reciprocated with a warm sweet smile. Haaz~ We had a short conversation before she left, her name was Melcy lol~ Back home, same old routine follows, MSN and tuning in to yes, u prob noe it by now, its SmoothJazz.Com... dissected my printer, booked my laptop loan appt and now here i m bloggin. gotta remind myself not to use 3rd person's perspective cox everyone is askign y i m using dat, well there isnt any reason, I just feel like it =P GSS is still on, but surprisingly I've not added any new stuff to my wardrobe at all, perhaps tml i shall make a trip down to town to do some retail therapy.... more pink stuff?? heeez~ feel like getting the nice pink shirt i saw at PS dat day. Yawnz... Lalaland is calling out for El, stopping here for 2d@e

300805 Bluey Sat Nite

Aint feeling dat great 2dae... Nuttin lined up after i woke up from my afternoon nap. Silly Tai Tai called only @ 7+ to confirm e SMU thingy. So sorry but in the end, the bluey screwed up El still threw his tantrums and went back home from orchard leaving poor JL to go SMU alone from Orchard. Pardon me, but i really see no sense in going for this shit~ and i really have no idea y the things dat Tai Tai organise is always so screwed up...
Went for my nite jog, felt so great for its been a whole long week since i last dashed on the secluded road with my Ipod blasting into my ears. Its a bad cold start but never mind, I'll perservere and get my fitness back.
After a gd 5km run, El is back in front of his PC again... facing the cold screen, tuning in to his fave smoothjazz.com again hopin to catch some Coltrane tunes. It was surprising to catch so many Psychos on MSN, but however 21/01 and St.Gabs are looking kinda empty.... i guess most guys are busy with gf while the gals keeping their bf company, only the silly dumb El is rotting at home with occasional flashing tots of Rac. Shdnt lament abt it anymore, at least now its occasional... 6mths back its painful grilling missing every free moment available. Well probably all El has is just this player look but doesnt have the capability to handle things the player way... Lol~ maybe i shall forget abt it and just patiently complete my nite cafe jigsaw tonite.
Shucks, hamtaro's bdae is gonna come soon~ wat shd i get for prezzie since i m the project manager for this event... The stupid rodent is just into overpriced stuff so i can roughly identify a few stuff like Crumpler slingbag, Mambo bags, Braun Buffel wallet, ZARA apparels or maybe an Adidas Jacket. Sorry dude but an Ipod Mini is really outta QN its too ex a pressie for u, no one would share unless u expect me to survive on bread all month long. Moreover CS, Tai Tai and friend R bdaes are all coming up... Sighz, Aug is gonna be a month of super duper heavy spending. My wallet is gonna bleed like no one's business.
Oops... nearly forgot, this is supposed to be a lengthy emotional 500word essay blog prescribed by pal E, alrite stop complaining k? I admit i really cant whine and bitch dat much to my blog like u do lol~ oh ya u aint online, prob grabbing lotsa beauty slp to make up for the miserable time u had to rest over the past 1 week...
So sorry cant join the dear psychos @ sentosa tml due to tuition commitments, i will try to meet u all for dinner if u all have plans for dat. Its time for El to turn in, hopefully tml will be a brighter day.

El = Retard lol~~

El and his psychotic pals met up for a gathering @ NYDC Suntec after his family dinner... Apparently the hottest topic of the nite is still CORS, modules and bidding, everyone is discussing it and recommending some real gd modules. The cookie monster mudpie was fantastic~ just love it so much no doubt its sinful... Color Magic + MRT Game made El realise dat he is really indeed no doubt retarded~ He just cant get it no matter wat.... Seems like El really need more brain teaser exercises to wake up the hibernating brain cells or maybe they are already dead lol~ Sighz its 2am in the morn yet El is still so fresh and hyper.... Maybe some running will do him gd and atone for the sins of the mudpie =) Finally weekend has arrived but El is still considering if he shd go for the SMU thingy tml evening with Tai Tai, wouldnt mind though since its free pizza and free beer but he is just lazy to step into a crowded squeezy orchard street. Boring Weekend awaits~

FRINOON!~

Cool windy friday, stoning right before the PC is El, stone-ed bored and still tired... he is beginning to suspect dat he might be down w Chronic Fatigue for no amount of rest seems to serve any rejuvenating purpose. Been feeling like this after El came back home from Matric Fair yesterday.
Got stood up by friend T, ended up practicing tennis all alone at Uncle's condo all morning till noon time. Long lost friend A called, asking for some explaination regarding CORS and modules and dat took up another part of my day.... I realised dat friend A is actually in my tuitorial group, aint dat glad cox we aint dat close...
Oh dear pal E, my pure sympathies for all dat happened to her... Apparently she is super pissed~ not over 1, not 2, aint 3 either, but 4 things! Gosh... her lack of sleep is probably getting her short tempered also.
Wanted to go meet up with friend J, R and K @ queensway but kinda got 'grounded'. I suppose my mom would skin me alive if i m late or even absent from the farewell dinner. Alritez EL Shall be a nice boy, at least for today =P
Fatigues is slowly seeping into me... stopping here for now

Tuesy~

El had a long day today.... Amazing feat dat he actually managed to wake up on time for lunch with jl before proceeding to sch for some 'beneficial' talk by Kassim (the vice Dean). One look at my fellow cohort... i sensed something, aint enmity but just dont really like the crowd lol~ Seems like i wont meet many fun loving pple like the besties i met in Union Camp... My love for the PsYcHoPaThS are just growing deeper each day =p If i had given Union Camp a miss, i bet my life in engine is gonna be horribly pathetic.... i doubt i will even mix ard with those crowd! i just got sthg against muggers and nerds!!! I would be more than happy if they prove my sweeping statement and bad impression wrong~ Sadly, Rac left today..... Sorry gal, i read ya card, i knew wat u meant, everything.... yes~ i meant everything literal sense or underlying. Not even the deepest apologies will even suffice. Time be granted to both you n me, the sweet memories remain but let time dampen all others. Well, happy times popped by though... El had a great time chilling with dick mart yunhan dawny JL @ Holland V... Nice nasi Lemak, Poor cheated JL lol~ Really enjoyable time with u pple~ friday i have things on w my OG but i will try find time for u guys as well!!! Sighzy Sighz Sobpy Sobz.... Time 4 Bed after wee hrs blog

Monday Blues

A long long silly day whereby coughing sleeping eating and stoning is apt to summarise... Well at least i m glad dat the fever is gone... and although i m still coughing, things seems to be turning towards the bright side. Decided to open the silly matric Pack dat was lying on my table untouched for 2 weeks, settled everything dat required filling and signing. Only when i m done with it dat i realised how lost and blur i m towards everything, i have absolutely no freaking idea wat i need to do regarding bidding and etc.... Maybe its high time i go look for some help from those who are already experienced, if not i would be totally LOST even b4 sch starts. Anyway it doesnt really matter...... Alrite, i ought to offer my deepest apologies to my new found confidante, just hope u wont take wat happened today to heart... i really dont mean it. Gonna meet up with SJL before we proceed for some CORS talk in sch and have a game of tennis..... hopefully i dont run outta breath after rotting for so long lol....
Alriteyz Wee is the nite, moon hangs up bright, dull my mood seems, e bed seems so rite =P

24 Jul 05

Y isnt Sundae Sunny for the gloomy me? a long day 4 me, had a bloodpuking tuition session for my Bro as scheduled! I m now beginning to wonder if my bro is really just lazy or he is just dumb or is it my lack of patience dat is behind everything?
After a nite of thinking..... or rather missing~ i guess i sorta made up mind regarding the latest prick in my head. Afterall i m not someone who likes dragging.... Cough Cough =( Silly fever and cough still refuse to let me off after haunting me for 3 days & nites, someone help??? Woods, pipa gao, strepsils cough syrup.... All tested and proven useless, shd i just succumb to the situation and go c a Doc and swallow disgusting antibiotics?? Well let mon be the last dragging day
Aniwae thanks Rac.... ya SMS rendered me ya understanding dat i deeply seek.... but i ought to be frank dat indeed someone new is breaking into my mind...
Alrite.... hope a plain sailing week with no hiccups or surprises will arrive~ would be best if someone is gonna jio me out for tennis also =p

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