Its been such a long while since i really type a thing here. My closest diary is thou shall not worry abt your existence... U r rmbed by El~
No sch work
No games
No troubles
El is set to just have break
Tonite El tot of lots of stuff
Wats happiness in life??
Money?? All the freaking C's u can possibly dream of owning??
A pretty gf?? Success in work??
Fame?? Glory??
Humans are unique we come to this piece of land the very same way
and we leave it the very same way
Perhaps thats abt all to wat all humans have in common ba
However, we think very differently, fight for distinct different things
Have u ever tried to do wat i have done,
Sit down properly and ask yourself this very qn??
I realised i am lost
i do not really know wat i want
It took El quite a while before i actually sorted out my priorities
El's dumb EQN,
Family + Friends + Love = Happiness
I have happily excluded money
I am not a saint i need it as well BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its perhaps one of the worse invention mankind ever came up w ba?
Its absence brings great discomfort
Its presence doesnt really make El much happier...
Losing Her in 210502 was perhaps the most painful thing that happened in El's life
Till today i cry, till today i feel the pain n regret over wat i failed to do...
Well its not gonna help.
I just have to bear with those listed above and treasure the all those ard...
1 regret in life is bad enuff since its not erasable
I dont need anymore additions
As for friends... Its subjective
Everyone needs diff kinda friends, commit diff into friendship as well
For El, the 4 years in St Gabs was by far the best thing that can happen ba
These years saw him acquainting the truest closest friends he ever needed
No one noes wat is gonna happen tml...
We may become enemies, lose contact or perhaps just stay the same
Its going to be 10yrs next year...
How many 10years can a person have on earth assuming he lives to 60?
Its been happy these 1oyrs, fair share of joy and tiny whiny bit of unhappiness
Thanks Bros~
but wat doesnt kill it strengthens it, perhaps thats why our ties is going strong
As for the love part,
Its really luck and your lobang with cupid
If u r lucky u get one~
I have one now and i just wanna cherish her
Been thru quite a bit to have a fair chance to see wat a person she has changed to
She is indeed just who i want and who i need
Just someone i can love and loves me
Wat more can i possibly ask for?? 1650 is the target
Seriously... For El
All that he wants for happiness is there,
The funny potluck that brings him joy.
Its actually nice to reflect on your life
as it really makes u feel how fortunate u are
Well, we often see funny qns in those spam chain emails
asking if u know u r going to die tml wat would u do today?
If u leave this world, do u think u r a happy man? etc etc...
For me i just realised one thing... after thinking thru...
No one is gonna come to your wake paying the last respect to u
rmbing the amount of money u accumulated while u breathed.... (thats why money is excluded)
If u had done pple wrong, the person wont be at your wake in the 1st place lol
Just sthg to ponder abt...
Wouldnt it be nice if at least one person were to come to your wake rmb-ing just one nice thing u have ever done that brought him fond memories?
To El, that means that a walk on this earth isnt wasted already~
Well, maybe whoever reads this may be finding me very morbid or pessimistic
But the truth is contrary...
I am viewing life in another way that perhaps pple wouldnt normally do??
And i am indeed happy to realised how fortunate i am
A occasional break like this is essential for me ba
Too many things have cropped up lately,
muddling my head, blinding me, draining me of my energy
I wanna be tired no more,
Onwards i will move...
Life journey is a displacement quantity
the starting point and end point are fixed
Carve out your happy path ba
since no matter wat,
once u start u gotta end at the same point
Too curvy burns u out
Too plain sailing is boring as well
Find your own equilibrium~ =)
