I am wondering, is a relationship just a matter between the two parties??
We like each other.
We wanna walk on with each other.
Many things have happened in the past 180days,
nuttin manage to separate us but now its really over i guess~
I was very disheartened and down when u affirmed my suspicion.
All along i knew your brother didnt like me,
there was always this feeling of horrid hostility from him
Some ugly uncomfortable scenes happened but i always chose to keep quiet
i didnt wanna strain the relationship btw u and your bro
how strange.... we never had more than 10words in total
yet why is it that he dislikes me so much to this extent???
I was very sad, i am still sad.
I do try to deny~
Why on earth would he need to intervene in our relationship???
Yes u r his sister~ He wants the best for u, i understand that~
I only have one qn that i do not have an answer to....
Who is he to judge my future and pass a death sentence on me??
I do not see him as a very successful individual~
I will be honest~ From start, I never liked him
he is no more than a loser.
Way too self-conceited and always thinks he is right,
he is not very rational either
But one thing that is true is he does want the best for u, his only sister
Just my opinions mostly negative, not aiming to discredit him
but maybe if u do read this, u will noe what i do see in him
My family teaches me two things which i live to rmb.
1) Never badmouth people behind their backs, cox u never wanna pple to do that to u
2) Never ever look down on people, if u do no one will look up to u either
Not really angry words from me just being critical..
Well u noe me.... all these while no matter wat, i never badmouthed him
while he has been doing it all these while
I do not have a car, living in just a shabby flat in Sengkang
My family cant give me much but i do not demand for anything more
Well yes maybe if i am a doctor or lawyer to be,
maybe he would pass a diff sentence on me???
He is psycho-ing u, his gf psycho your mother~
I do find stress in the relationship..... Its tiring on me
Moreover, we are already in diff world,
U r working i am still schooling
Gap grows..... with this prob more inevitable trouble will brew
I do not aim to just live through my life
the standard way normal HDB flat dwellers do...
I have my dreams to push me and to work towards
No doubt, my family aint rich, i am not the best catch
But i dare say i am decent and striving
U do not have the courage to bear the burden
I do not have the courage to blindly go on
I noe i will hurt when i see u collapse when u get sandwiched between him and me someday
We all noe that day will surely come if we are tgt
Letting go is painful but its only short term effect
Much as i hate to but i still choose to let it go
When night falls, tots of u and the happy times flood my mind
Wat can i do?? Not gonna wallow, Not gonna cry....
I just regret not being able to do a thing to change the situation so i can have u back.
Someday your brother will regret his judgement and wat he tot of me
For now, to the hell with him and his despising looks on me
I do pray he will achieve more and be well off always
so he never have a chance to feel wat i feel
Losers cant fall, hope he never fall~
I am working towards my goals, my engineer dream~
I live once and i will succeed~
