Pre Sch Blues

Finally~~ everything is gonna start tml... The clock is gonna tick and the stress is gonna build.... as time seeps by... will it be regrets or a fulfilling sense of achievement @ e end of 4yrs?? I have no answer to it.... not gonna say nonsense like i will put in my best, nuttin but the best effort etc.... Cheezeeeee Nuttin but a bunch of crap... Actions n Results speak louder than words!!! Suddenly its the chinese lunar 7th month again... the festival of Hungry Ghosts... When was the last time i actually noticed the practices of the festival ?? A gd 2yrs?? Somehow, certain old memories lingering along my memory lane pops up reminding me of the particular someone... Once we offered tgt, now i offer to her. Its been 3yrs... i still miss her (TT) W/O her, Elvin wouldnt be wat he is today. Oh mine~ suddenly i miss her homecook stuff so much... Was tuning in to class95 awhile ago, a Colin Raye song was played titled Holes In The Floor Of Heaven. I doubt anyone would believe it... El teared~ Since when anyone ever saw El shedding tears?? Not even the closest of all buddies had ever seen it. Its always bottled up. The last time rd when i heard the song was 3yrs back when she left me. She is living in my memory lane and as e lyrics goes... There's holes in the floor of heaven and the tears are pouring down, dats how u noe she's watching, wishing she could be here~ No doubt i can never forgive myself for giving up the last chance to talk to her b4 she is gone. However, i really hope dat she is able to see me getting over the pain n living my life to the fullest i can for dats her last wish of me... I really miss u, appear in my dreams will u? Its a drizzling nite... goes rite well with my mood, El cant go on... Maybe the bed is a gd escape if he is able to put his tots to rest~